My Grandpa. I will miss you.

To say that my life has changed since my last blog entry would be an understatement. I moved, I got married, and now, today, I lost my grandpa. And I guess 'lost' is a silly way to say it. It's not like he was the car keys that I couldn't find. But saying he passed away is so final... So unbelievably real. Which it is, obviously. But seeing as I've never dealt with this whole death thing... I'm coping the best I can. With support from my family, in-laws and friends I am more than okay. I can't say I'm feeling great... Hah. But I'm reminded how much my grandpa was loved, how much he loved us, and how much I'm loved. The tears and pain come in bursts. I haven't cried this much ever- and I'm an emotionally charged theatre graduate who can't go a day without over analyzing every passing feeling. So it's a tad overwhelming. But at the end of the day I'm sitting here with both sadness and an incredible sense of Joy: that I was able to be the granddaughter of such a loving simple God-fearing man. For whatever reason God decided that today he wanted my Grandpa with him, and although it's hard to accept- deep down I know he's in the best place in existence. Probably watching heaven football or something. I will now and forever miss Ellis Ziebarth. He was the calm in the storm and the dry-humor to my sass. I hope you got to meet him at least once, and if you didn't just know he was absolutely awesome.  I guess that's all I have for now, but maybe you'll be hearing more from me in the near future. Who can resist my iconic commentary on life? Thank you for taking the time to read this though. It means the world.