life of a bookseller

Im at work right now; yes, right this moment. No i am not shirking my responsibilities... ive just been assigned to nook duty... which means im physically chained to the nook table. I cant leave. So i get to play while i wait for customers to show interest in this awesome device. Do you want to know why the nook tablet is so awesome? Of course you do! First of all i own one... which proves its amazingness, but in case that doesnt quell your doubts here are some other reasons you should put it on your Christmas list: fastest tablet on the market, 16 gig memory with an SD card slot to increase memory, built in microphone, bn.com has over a gazillion books to choose from (not officially a gazillion... but wayyy more than amazon), and we have wicked cool nook covers. Mine is black with silver signatures of famous authors including Jane Austen, William Shakespeare, and Edgar Allen Poe. It rocks my socks... and everyone elses socks as well. Well that's the end of my sales pitch for now.
In other news im supposed to be half memorized for Eleemosynary by the end of this week... guess who is no where close... but no worries... ill just have to eat sleep and live by my script. Maybe ill type out my lines on my nook! Haha i couldnt help but throw that in there. If at any time you want to hang out expect me to ask you to help me run lines... and as my friend you should be happy and joyful that i am including you in such a huge part of my life. :) well, im going to sell nooks and books now... have a great day!
Ps were still having a HUGE sale here at bookstar... 50% a handful of books! I bought four yesterday and only paid 28 bucks... great for gifts.. for your friends and yourself!!! :D
Bookseller for the win!

Ass.U.Me.

Assumptions. Suck.

I mean, we're bound to assume things here and there. It's practically inevitable. And my assumptions are no worse or better than yours... but the simple fact remains.. they're assumptions.

In case you've forgotten what the word assume means here is a brief definition for you: to believe something is true based upon general unproven observations and/or reports.

Unproven is the key word. And I think we all do ourselves a huge disservice when we stand by what we allegedly believe do to our 'keen' observations...

So, for instance, let's say you read this blog and you think 'hey i think she's talking about me there' Case in point- that would be an assumption. I could very well be thinking about you this very moment.. but you won't really know unless you ask!

How does this pertain to life outside of my bloggy world? Well, if you've been reading my previous posts at all you know that I'm in a bit of a tizzy when it comes to people and crushes and feelings about crushes and the aftermath of crushes, etc. This being said... none of the previous blogs necessarily directly concern me at this moment. Don't get me wrong.. I've felt and dealt with everything I've mentioned... but I'm not in a passionate whirlwind of a crush that has rejected me ever so sourly. I'm just taking notice of the people around me.

I'm just frustrated right now and I wish people would stop assuming and start speaking up. You know that popular saying... when you assume you make an ass out of you and me... Well it's true. Except you really just make yourself look like a darn fool and frustrate the crap out of me. You can assume you know who I'm talking about.. but again... you won't really know unless you ask... so Hah!

Alright. Done venting for tonight. I need sleep. But rehearsals are going splendidly. I am still so excited for this show despite the rigorous amount of effort it is going to take to memorize all my lines! So excited!! :) I hope everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving break!!!

A vicious cycle...

This is an extension from my last post. Mainly because I'm not done hitting a dead horse with a stick (or any heavy object really).

Recap: It seems that when you 'like' someone you aren't really good at controlling those feelings. In spite of this fact, you should do your very best not to let those feelings control you. Don't get too head over heals because you'll get hurt. Dial back the time you hang out together.. or the amount of time you think about how 'awesome' they are. Don't put yourself in a situation where you're bound to get overwhelmed.

I say these things not because I'm a pessimist. I'm not saying that if you have a crush on someone they'll never end up liking you back. That's totally and completely possible. Woohoo for hope! I'm just suggesting, especially after these last few weeks, that you just put yourself first, and not them.

I stand by what I've already said... you can't let your crush control you. As wonderful as I'm sure they are... no one is more important than your mental well being. Because let's face it.. crushes can make us all a little insane.

End of recap.

Now, what happens when this advice is ignored... glad you asked. Since I'm sure you've never felt unwanted, rejected, or just completely worthless due to a crush-like situation let me enlighten you (this is sarcasm ladies and gentlemen just in case you take things a tad too literally).

Imagine how a discarded yellow banana peel feels. It protects this wonderful fruit that is germinating inside it; probably thinking about the day it gets to show what it's been hiding for so long and wondering what's going to happen. And then that day comes, the banana is ripe and awesome, they get peeled back... only to have the fruit ripped from them, eaten, and then tossed aside without a second thought. Nothing to show for it's efforts and devotion.

Yeah... I've been that banana peel. It sucks.

But unlike the banana peel it's not the end of the world.

You can make sure that never happens again... Just become a nun/monk. Hahaha. kidding. Threw that in there to see if you were paying attention.. didn't know if I lost you after the banana analogy.

So the person you've liked for who knows how long turns you down in a way similar to this: "Sorry, you're just not good enough. You're too (insert numerous qualities you hate about yourself here)." And sure, they never actually say that exactly... but we all know they might as well have.. because it's kind of the truth. At least we think so.

Here are the steps you should now take:

1) realize that it's their loss. I know everyone says that. But seriously. It is. There is something unique and wonderful about every single one of us. And if that person can't see it because of some physical attribute, personality characteristic, etc... then that sucks for them.

2) they were not that great to begin with. When you like someone it seems as if they walk on air. and are beautiful and charming and this and that.. honestly.. ask all the people you talk to about them.. you think they poop rainbows. They don't. They're human... and humans can be pretty stinking dumb. I mean I'm sure they are nice, but they have flaws and and insecurities too.. only difference is.. you just boosted their self esteem.. while they crushed yours. (how unfair is that?)

3) get drunk. HAHA. again.. kidding. sorry... I couldn't help but toss that in there. In fact, I actually suggest staying away from anything that would increase your chance of calling/texting/facebooking them and making a complete fool out of yourself. Have some dignity. The moment they turn you down is the moment you have every reason to pity them for life.

4) spend some quality time doing things for yourself. You've been so wrapped up in them (whoever the idiot crush was) for so long you've probably forgotten what YOU like to do. Read a book.. go shopping.. create something.. bake something.. listen to Adele.. Just make sure it's all for you and no one else.

5) c'est la vie. I personally hate it when people use this phrase, but it doesn't change the fact it's absolutely true. Crap happens. It sucks. But you're still living and breathing. Be thankful for what you have and the experiences you've lived through. It's bound to get better.

I'm sure there are a ton of other things you can do.. but that's for you to figure out. If you need to be angry then be angry... or sad or whatever. but I stand by my five steps. I promise they'll lead somewhere great. Kind of like how that wardrobe led to Narnia. Or Platform 9 3/4 leads to Hogwarts. Definitely somewhere great.

Some charitable thoughts.

Wow.

Yesterday was a whirlwind of a day that's for sure. Auditions for Eleemosynary were at 330! I think our professor's have a thing for plays beginning with the letter 'E' this year. Not that I mind. Because I've just been cast in BOTH of them. You read correctly, I got cast in Eleemosynary. As if you didn't already know. It's been blasted over fb for 12 hours now. The three of us (Julie, Alyssa, and I) can't seem to wrap our heads around it I think. So we just keep screaming, posting, and doing happy dances sporadically whenever we feel like it. I'm sure the excitement will die down soon... haha. Hardly, but maybe we won't be as shocked that what we actually wanted worked out. It's an eerie feeling getting a part I desired. Never happens. And even if this is the only time it ever happens I am thankful nevertheless. Okay, I've rambled on enough about plays and theatre for right now (I'm sure you'll be reading more about it as the months go on anyway so don't feel jilted :D ).

Another topic I've felt pressing on me is the absurd amount of idiotic tendencies we put ourselves through when we 'like' someone. At least on a girl level I know that we usually are hyper aware of every single look, movement, word, facebook post and breath of the said person we like. (this is obviously a generalization.. but it's what I've noted over the past 23 years) It's slightly creepy and completely pointless! I don't know why we put ourselves through so much emotional duress. Analyzing those texts he sent you... won't get you any answers, because analyzing words from a screen is one of the dumbest things you could do anyway. Seriously! Someone could write, hey hows ur day and to me that means we're obviously just friends and you don't really care whether or not I reply... but then someone could write Hey, how's your day? and that suddenly means they care more because they've used punctuation marks and have spelled out words. But in reality person one just cares a whole lot less about using proper grammar in texts. It potentially means zilch about how they feel about me!
I think deep down we know when someone likes us. Or when we're wasting our time. I'm not saying give up on all crushes. Because sometimes people just need a little bit longer to see how amazing we are. BUT, let's refrain from getting our heads stuck up on cloud nine because we can't seem to think about anything else. We shouldn't let them have that kind of power anyway, even if we can't control who we 'crush' on, we can control how much we let it invade our mind.
I know we also can't really control that achey feeling (some call it butterflies.. but until that crush realizes and likes you back.. it's really just an awful stomach ache) we get in the pit of our stomach when that crush walks by. We can, however, control how we act. We should all try to act as much as who we inherently are (in other words... don't act overtly flirty or annoyingly mean in hopes to gain some attention- if they end up eventually liking you... you probably want them to like you not the 'you' you pretended to be...) as possible. I just think having a crush shouldn't ruin/dictate life choices. Even though I'm pretty sure that's what we let it do.
My point is, let's just simmer down. Having a crush is fun and allows for loads of stuff to talk about with our friends, but don't get your hopes up. (OR just be honest with the person and tell them you like them... no matter what it'll work out in your favor. They'll either be interested or you'll realize you need to get over them asap -> but seeing as this hardly ever ever ever happens.. I'm just going to go with the don't get your hopes up bit)

The end. :)