Is everybody ready? Is everybody looking at me?

(615): small problem..I have a major exam in the morning so I might have to go to the library after the party
(423): so no drinking for you?
(615): don't be silly

Not that TFLN is the example I will live my life by when I turn 21 in fourteen days, but it sure is chuckle worthy. Actually I wont be able to drink at all because I go to Point Loma, and there is a strict no drinking policy stated in the covenant I signed Freshman year. So if you see someone who looks like me drinking.. you need to get your eyes checked.. because it obviously can't be me. That would be stupid. Just thought I'd explain that.

Wow, I feel incredibly ridiculous starting my blog off about alcohol. I think it was the only thing I wasn't going to get all emotional about.. which lets face it, I was just putting off until now. But to start off on a good note, Waiting for Godot went off without a hitch tonight. It was bloody fantastic. The equivalent to any really good show you may have seen in the past.. hands down. It made me wish I was more then just the crash box girl. But I guess at least I am involved.. took me long enough, seriously. Speaking of getting involved, I know I have already mentioned the Fantasticks auditions Monday, but I am getting increasingly more nervous. I should in fact probably be memorizing my monologue instead of writing this.. but all in due course.. or is it time? Either way I will get to it eventually. I practiced my try-out song today at voice lessons, and I then listened to the recording and decided I dislike how I sound. lol. But apparently that's normal so I have concluded not to worry about it.

This weekend is Halloween!!! I feel like I should be more excited.. but I am not.. probably because I am going to not eat candy. And by not eat candy I mean limit my intake, because lets face it I am addicted to sweets. But (and as I am rereading this for spelling and grammatical errors I have no idea how I leaped from the topic of having a candy addiction to losing weight.. seems contradictory.. but yet not very surprising) I have figured that since salads weren't helping my whole 'losing weight' plan, I shall move onto soup. And only broth type soups, even though I extremely dislike broth type soups, because cream is not that healthy for one such as myself. (and here I connect the two topics! I am a genius!) Then again neither are sweets. darn it! Okay.. I am reluctantly stating here and now that I am not allowed any more sweets until my birthday. that is two weeks. I can do it! and I shall cry loudly in protest when anyone offers me a piece of candy.

One more thing before I end this rather not as emotionally driven as I thought it was going to be blog. I love music. :D It takes awhile but no matter what hopelessly depressed or angry mood I am in, it helps.. Nothing else on earth like it. It is like candy for your ears.. but totally healthy!!! haha. I just had to tie in food one more time. And for the finishing touch:

If music be the food of love, play on. - the man, William Shakespeare.

I can't seem to be serious.. maybe it's the candy.

(702): So what does a sober person do in Vegas on a Friday night?

And I would have replied to this text with: Play lots of board games. :) I find it quite fulfilling actually, playing board games that is. Hear me out: you get to hang out with people you like, laugh a lot, be crazy, and try to beat them all at the same time. How can you not have fun doing that?? Sure sometimes my family gets a little too competitive and it seems like more of a smack down then a family game night, but in the end I can look back and laugh. Which is really all that matters I think.

So, I watch the show Glee. And I absolutely love it, but it is definitely not for everyone. But I do have a reason for bringing it up besides promoting it, the main girl, Rachel, was the main girl in Spring Awakening when it first opened on Broadway. That means I already have her voice on my Itunes because I have the Spring Awakening soundtrack! Because Spring Awakening is amazing. Musicals in general are amazing, but that is beside the point. Speaking of theatre, I am in the Soloman Theatre right now (Point Loma's theatre) with Lauren and Bryant. Lauren is cleaning and Bryant is playing on her phone. They are going to go far as a couple.. and I am so calling Godmother for all their children. They might not know this yet.. but it's the truth. :D Oh and I will also be a bridesmaid. haha not in that order of course.

Tryouts for The Fantasticks are in a week. I am excited.. Because once Waiting for Godot is over I won't have anything to occupy my mind, and God knows I need to be kept busy otherwise I might go insane, because I think way too much and theatre keeps me from thinking, well about my life at least. And I love theatre, even when it gives me an aneurysm.

:D

PS 18 days until my birthday!! yeehaw.

a vague supplication

Today was my seventeenth birthday. We have this tradition where one parent signs the birthday card, and then the other signs it, and the first parent doesn't get to look at it ever again until I open it. This time, my mom got to sign first. She wrote, "Only one more year till you're legally an adult! *kisses*" My dad wrote underneath that, "Sorry about her. She's a Muggle." MLIA

Today has been rather uneventful so far. I had a wicked strange dream though. Strange as in odd as in totally wish it would happen but it never will. *sigh* And then I wake up and I go back to this life I lead, which I completely love except for the fact that I am currently emotional. And by emotional I don't technically mean I want to cry about everything. More so I would like to punch people for being stupid or rude or down right mean. That and I get irritated easily. Like now.. I am thinking of this whole huge scenario that has been going on since forever now (really only about a year and half, but still). And this issue has me completely agitated, because I have all these people telling me one thing and then some telling me other things, and then the one person that it is referring to doesn't tell me at all, or skirts around the entire subject. Which okay, I should just have patience. What is the rush right? BUT I JUST WANT TO KNOW!!!!!! you know? And then I am too big of a sissy to ask myself.. noway. And I know that as the reader you're probably staring at the screen thinking, she has completely lost her mind, which I won't deny.. I probably have. And I know I make zero sense at the moment, but I just had to vent because the biggest problem with this whole scenario is that I don't even know how I feel about it. hmph.

Anyway... ha ha. I started writing my story again. It is actually incredibly lame at the moment, because I know what is going to happen, and I want to just hump to the really fun and interesting parts but I can't because I have to lead up to them. But I don't want to lead up to them!!! It's a big argument that goes on inside my head. And that can't be a good sign.. arguing with myself.. I blame it on these Godot rehearsals.

Every night all night.. Don't get me wrong, I love it. I absolutely adore every single person involved in this show. I just don't enjoy the drama. Which is kind of ironic since that is another name for theater.. but seriously.. WHY CANT WE ALL JUST GET ALONG? Sing Kumbaya or something, because by the end of the night I am surprised that one, if not all of us, are not dead. But then again, I think I live for all of it. Including the daily drama. Weird how my brain works. One big giant circle.

Well I am off to apparel construction, aka sewing class. We learn how to sew in zippers today.. and every single time I turn on that sewing machine I am afraid I am going to suck at it.. the sewing I mean, but somehow it all works out. It's kind of like a metaphor for my life. lol.

Adieu, until next time. :D

Knock knock ... whose there? ... you know ... you know who? ... Exactly! Avada Kedavra!!

Last night, I was at a highschool football game. My friend paid the announcer in the booth fifteen bucks to say, "Ten points for Gryffindor!" every time our team scored. He did. It was the best night ever. MLIA

I miss high school football games. Well the ones that were at my first high school. But not really the second. Because the second was kind of not exciting. and not too many people even went to them. But just the same, I miss high school. Today has not been that great.. in fact I think I am just irritable.. and I feel like I really pissed some people off today too. Really fantastic. And to top it all off I have only eaten doughnut holes today. super healthy right? Now I am at rehearsal, and all these sounds and voices make me want to kick things violently. Or cry. Neither very helpful.

My weekend was pleasant though. Game nights and swimming pools. I have some video excerpts that I will probably place up here eventually, when i find the time to download them to my computer. It really was a fun weekend. And since I have not been able to hang out with my roommates for the longest time it was well overdue.

I also got to hang out with my Grandma. She took me to Mimi's. Funny story about that.. we get there and she rolls down the windows because she wants it to to be cool when we come back out. and then she proceeds to take the keys and place them in the cup holder and puts used tissues over them saying, "We'll just leave the keys here and.." well of course i interrupt her and ask what she is doing. she then explains she is leaving the keys in the car (mind you the windows are still rolled down completely) Thus I grabbed the keys and put them in my purse saying, "We live in southern california Grandma. We do not leave our keys in the car in southern california." It made me laugh. She doesn't drive much. But I love her. Very much.

On a different note, I am at rehearsal as stated previously and there is this one girl named Rebecca who has made me smile a considerable amount more since I began this blog.. by: pointing out that the rock onstage is in fact square.. very very square. lol. and then prancing around in this brown cape type thing quoting lines from Lord of the Rings.. when in reality it is her costume for Waiting for Godot. hahaha.

I am now going to attempt to write more of my fanfiction story that I have not touched in a month. Wish me luck, I hope I can get the imagination station up and running again.. yes, i just referred to my brain as the imagination station. be jealous.

MLIA

Today, my boyfriend and I decided to go to the movies. we put on our coats and scarves. while waiting outside the theater to buy tickets, a little girl walked up to us, stared at my boyfriend as though she was scared, looked at me in a disgusted way and said "i thought you were better than this!" we were thoroughly confused until we realized I had bushy brown hair and was wearing a scarlet and gold scarf. he has silvery blond hair and had an emerald scarf. I love this little girl, and completely agree. MLIA

Please tell me you understand what this is alluding to.. because it made my day. (I heart Harry Potter references)
I am switching it up, so instead of the normal Text from last night quotes, which are still fabulous, I will also give you a little dose of My Life Is Average.com It is absolutely wonderful.

I don't have alot of time to talk considering I really need to get started on my ten page paper that is due TOMORROW!!!! AGHHHH. But I did cast my show last night, and I am incredibly excited. I think all three actors have some major talent and if they work hard will be able to pull this off!!! with a little help from moi. :D

I am off to lunch and then sewing and then PAPER!!! it shall prove to be the bane of my existence, I just know it.