Day 37: what what what are you doing?

Song of the Day: Don't Go Breaking My Heart from Ella Enchanted sung by Anne Hathaway and Jesse McCartney. Jessica Griffin and I started singing this today on the tube... I started it because I had to figure out a way to make her not upset with me anymore (fake upset I should say.. we like to pretend alot over here in London.. for instance.. the other day I was a wizard.. and the day before that I was a princess.. you see?)

Well... I finished up homework thinking I was ready to hop in bed and finally get to sleep but NOOOOOOOoooooooooooooo i have to write my blog. meh and then when I posted this blog.. or clicked publish post it gave me this stupid error message that erased half my blog.. and of course I dont remember what I said so now you get this lovely filler message instead.. it had something to do about how i'm addicted to procrastination... not alcohol or drugs.. but procrastination.. oh and freeCell. Which ultimately just leads to more procrastination. Its kind of awesome.. in a way.. somehow. but anyway, back to the essence and reason of this blog...

Here is a little summary of my day: I went to class. I went to the Royal National Theatre to see Danton's Death. It was good. I came back and have been writing papers since then. I just finished.

AND THERE HAVE BEEN TWO FREAKING BEES TO HAVE FLOWN INTO MY ROOM IN THE LAST HALF AN HOUR AND I AM ABOUT TO KICK SOME MAJOR BUTT. WHY CANT THEY STAY OUTSIDE??? IN NATURE???????? WHERE THEY BELONGGGGG????????

sorry. I just got very frustrated for a second. I am better now. But anyway, I'm off to bed now. Nothing interesting happening tomorrow.. besides finishing up the homework that I didn't get done tonight but that is still due tomorrow. hahaha. hehehe. hahaha Until Next Time.

Day 36: 100th Blog Post

Song of the Day: Far Longer Than Forever from the Swan Princess. I always loved that movie, and I just always loved this song... :D It brings back alot of great memories.
So today is my hundredth blog post!!!! Wooooooo. And to commemorate such an event the Loma Londoners planned a party!! Okay that's a lie, the party was actually in honor of every one's birthdays. My day started out kind of rough... I've been in a perpetually bad mood but it slowly began to lift around 4 pm today... and ever since then I have been a lot less bitter and hostile. In fact I might even be considered peachy. At least for the moment, but I have over 6 papers I need to write and so that is just a tad daunting, but with a restful night's sleep I will be able to awaken refreshed and ready to kick butt. I don't have alot to say, which is slightly disheartening because I figure my 100th blog post is supposed to be epic or something or another... but it will actually be rather short and not that different than all my others. Lame I know. I do have some pretty exciting news though: for all you Glee fans out there.. or Spring Awakening fans.. Jonathan Groff (the actor who played douche bag Jesse in Glee) is in a new play over here in London and guess who is going to see it Thursday night!!!! MEEEE!!!!! It's a comedy thriller... so I don't exactly know what I'm getting myself into.. but hopefully it will all be worth it. And about the Germany/Ireland dilemma... I think I decided upon Ireland. I've never been there before.. and although I don't particularly remember Germany all that well I can still say I've been before.. where as I can't say that about Ireland. That is, until I go there!!! AHHHHH. :D But I have to get all the specifics figured out and of course I'll update everyone then. Well, I'm off to bed now... tomorrow I will be doing laundry!!! which I am so excited about and I will be doing an epic amount of homework. Again, so excited. But at least I get to go see a play tomorrow night titled Danton's Death. It's about the French Revolution. And for someone who doesn't enjoy politics (that would be me I am referring to just in case you didn't know) I deeply enjoy history. Thanks to my amazing professor Dr. Wood who I quoted numerous times while blogging this past year. He gave me a new found passion for history and all the it entails. So I'll definitely let you know how that goes as well. So Until next Time. :)

Day 35: I hate emotions...the end.

Song of the Day: Get Back to Hogwarts from A Very Potter Musical. I know some people say that the musical spoof off of Harry Potter isn't that funny and it's way too long. But this is what I say to those people: You are misinformed and just very very wrong. And you may argue that that is just your opinion, in which case I say: nope. You're still wrong. muahaha. :p. But seriously, if you haven't watched it you need to. It may be a tad long.. but nothing too horrendous. The first Act is the best though.. so at the very least watch that. It's all on youtube. :D
So I went to church twice today. I feel like I'm moving on up in the Christian universe considering I went from not going at all (during school last year) to going twice on the same day? Then again, God doesn't keep track of how many church services we go to so nevermind. But the point is, I enjoyed both services. The worship was amazing, and the sermons weren't too bad. I had an awesome time, and I'm really glad I was actually able to find a church here. I think it's funny though how literally everything we do here is just a part of school... including church... I have to do a write up of different worship services.. and turn it in. >.< I think I'm just in a sour mood and of course it makes it difficult to write a pleasant blog... one in which I don't vent about certain grievances I have at the moment. Also, on top of that I just want to cry all the time. It's why I have to listen to music from things like A Very Potter Musical... You just cant cry over any of those songs. Where as I put on a worship song.. or some slow country song and I'll start weeping. I seriously need to get a grip on this crying business. meh.
Now I know I mentioned this in my last blog, but since no one commented/answered I'm bringing it up again. Should I go to IRELAND or GERMANY????? Now I'm leaning towards Ireland. Because well.. it's awesome. But Germany might be awesome too. tell me your thoughts. I am all ears. Or eyes in this case.
So I am going to either hop in bed and get some sleep or keep doing homework... or maybe just sit here and cry since that seems like such a pressing option. But whatever happens.. I have school tomorrow.. how exciting.. ugh. shoot me. Until Next Time.

Day 34: Stratford-upon-Amazing!

Song of the Day: All About Love by Steven Curtis Chapman. I want to live this song out... but sometimes it's just really difficult. Because not only are you supposed to love others but yourself as well. Treating yourself like poop can often be just as bad as treating others as such. We are all children of God, and we should be proud of that fact. I should be proud of that. As the song says: After all it's all about Love. My little devotion of the day.

Today we took the train up to Stratford-upon-avon... William Shakespeare's birthplace. Where we saw the Royal Shakespeare Company put on Julius Caesar. It was pretty amazing. It wasn't my favorite, but I think that's just because I'm not a huge fan of the text/plot line. But they did fantastic with what they were working with. Before we actually saw the play we had some time to roam; there was this lovely lake and we also stumbled upon the Shakespeare statues, including Lady Macbeth. Who even though I haven't read the play or seen it... I think I really like her character. Hence... picture of me copying the statue.. haha. :D And then we went to tea, which wasn't as good as the first tea we went to, but it was a yummy tea just the same. And afterwards we actually made it on the train without running half a mile (in fact we got there 20 minutes early). And then we got back home, and I played cards with seven other people in our neighboring roommates. Cash. That was the game. And for the first time ever I didn't lose every single game. In fact we gave everyone a run for their money!!! I finally figured out a good secret key password to signal we that we have cash. And of course if you dont know the game you have no idea what that means, but I will definitely be up for teaching anyone and everyone when I get home! Just ask.

I forgot to mention that when I lived here in England back when I was a wee-one (age 2-5) we lived about 45 minutes from Stratford. When we go back there in two weeks I think I will try and take a bus to where we lived. Maybe I'll have like a memory flashback if I visit.. but most likely it will just be a really cool experience. By the way, I have the option to go to Ireland or Germany.. but not both.. So which should I go to?? Both will be roughly around the same price I think.. so that can't factor into your decision. But let me know you're thoughts!!! I'm all ears.

Now, today started out really crappy. I was in probably one of the worst moods I have been in while I've been here. Seriously, almost everyone was driving me up the wall. It was ridiculous. Not to mention it was supposed to be hot and it turned out to be rather chilly.. so that just made me more bitter. And then I will randomly get these bitter and depressing thoughts that can just consume my emotions. It wasn't until the train ride home that I started to feel better. And the sad thing is.. I don't think anyone even noticed. Which either means I'm getting better at hiding my emotions.. or people are completely oblivious. A part of me is happy when no one sees how sad/upset I am because then I don't have to try and explain why (which in this case is just so complicated anyways). But then another part just gets more upset. Am I that invisible? Which is slightly ironic because it's not like you can ever miss me. I'm as big as life. Well almost.

And one more thing... Is it normal to be able to completely push thoughts/memories out of your mind to the point that you don't have to deal with the emotions that come along with them? Just a question.

Well that's all I have for today... I'll be going to church tomorrow and doing homework ALL day. lol. Wish me luck. Until Next Time. :D

BTW it is Megan Deboard's Birthday today!!! She is WONDERFUL and BEAUTIFUL. and I wish her the happiest of birthdays. Wish you could be here in London with me hun!!! Love you!!!

Day 33: Apple Turnover

Song of the Day: Come What May from Moulin Rouge.
Today was a rollercoaster of emotion. There were parts, like going to this small park behind a church on High Street Kensington and having a small picnic, that were absolutely wonderful. It was an absolutely beautiful day. In fact it made me regret the fact that I pretty much only packed for the fall and winter. I literally have three tops that could be considered summery (and I bought two of them here... haha). So for all of you who think London is cold and rainy all year long.. you are sadly mistaken. It feels like San Diego right now.. that's how wrong you are. lol. Also, for any of you who think England food is bad.. again.. misinformed.. SO GOOD. I guess it is kind of a melting pot like America.. but their breads and desserts are just amazing. I had this shortbread cookie with milk chocolate chunks that was absolutely divine. Good thing I don't have an unhealthy obsession with food.. oh wait.. haha. But I'm going to try very hard to stop buying food. I know I've said this before.. but I want to spend money on more memorable things.. (though that cookie was quite memorable). Tomorrow we're going to Stratford-upon-Avon to see Julius Caesar, and we get to have TEA!!!! seriously, the best invention in the world.. eating tea with tiny sandwiches and scones. So good. And it also means I don't need to buy anything. Yay.
I slept in till noon today. Then went to the park with Aimelle like I said, and then came back and took a two hour nap. So to say the least, I got a few good hours of sleep. It was purely grand. Except for when I woke up because our room was SOOOOO hot. The sun was shining in, and we can't have our window open for fear of bee attacks.. so it was like a bloody sauna. Definition of unpleasant.
I found out the cast for Much Ado About Nothing at PLNU!!!! Congratulations to everyone involved. Seriously miss everyone so much. And yes, I am happy to be here in London still, but I am definitely jealous of all the camaraderie that will occur over this show. Maybe you can make a card board cut out of me and keep it around the theatre... that way you can all pretend I'm there. all the time. Keep Irving company. Run it by Doc and see what he thinks for me will you? :D But again, I hope everyone has the best time and I can't wait to see the finished product.
And finally, I like to keep everything in my blogs upbeat for the most part. I don't exactly go on about annoying things, or any instances where I may or may not bawl like a baby. Especially because it all seems so thankless when I'm here in London. But in reality, London doesn't change my life into this perfect ball of fun and simplicity. I still have to deal with issues and emotions. And today, well today... I can't really talk about it. For fear of bawling and what not, but I will just say that sometimes we have to make decisions that hurt. And I don't know how long it will take for the hurt to go away. All I can say is that it is in God's hands; now I just have to trust him.
Until Next Time.